I am not a “hot” girl. I will probably never turn you on, or take your breath away, or impress your friends with the way I look… but I can make you laugh and make you feel wanted, and sometimes I can be really cute. I really wish that could be enough, just once.
Grabe everytime na aabot na ako sa point na kinikilig kilig na ko biglang… oops wait, may girlfriend ka. Can not be. Please try again later toot toot. Grabe ang unfair. Parang di ko naman sinasadyang ma-fall ah. So, pano ‘to? Papanoorin ko na lang siguro kayo magdate sa 14? Hahahaha sawi ang peg!
I am going to pinky swear to you now, that I will try to be the best boy…… that I can be for you. I’ll watch movies with you all day if you wanted to - your favorite movies, my favorite movies, new movies, any movie. We can go to the park and run around the playground. This small distance between us won’t break us apart. We’ve had our ups and downs lately. and with everything we have been through, all the struggles, all the heartache from our pasts, and all the friends we’ve made and lost, we still have each other. Though things aren’t the greatest with us right now, we have a long road ahead of us, and I know we are both strong enough to make it, both of us willing. It just takes time, and we can make it. We have so much going for us, separately, and together. I’m sorry for the fights that we get into. I’m sorry for making you cry. I’m sorry for lying. I’m sorry for not knowing how to deal with my own thoughts and problems. I’m sorry I dont like to talk about them. I’m sorry if you feel like I’m blocking you out. I’m sorry if I act childish sometimes. I’m sorry if I get jealous. I tend to get jealous really easily. Usually over things that i shouldn’t even worry about. I just can’t control it, I don’t want anyone else to have you. I don’t want you to find someone better than me. I know that there’ll be times where I can’t always make you happy. I know that there will be times where I won’t be able to see you as often. Please don’t use it to start a fight or anything. Nobody can break us apart, no matter what. (I’m not conyo :D) I just want it to be formal. and to add some spicy, toppings, etc. to this letter, my mother said that “mothers knows best” and that is doubtless cause you didn’t ever lie to me when we are together. I miss you so! sorry for all that i’ve done. So please give me that ch..cha…cha.chaaa…chan…chance. again. I swear I’ll make it serious this time.
For a few minutes you made me feel as though I actually meant something to someone. But, like you always do, I bet you won’t even last one month. I’m not even upset, hurt or angry anymore. I’m just tired. I’m tired of putting in more effort than what I recieve. I’m tired of holding on for nothing. I’m tired of believing in all your lies. I’m tired of you proving me wrong every time. I’m tired of getting my hopes up only to be disappointed again. i think one of the worst feelings in the world, is that awkward empty feeling you get right after you spill your heart out, did everything you could just to make that person stay and lay all your cards on the table. Right after you get the strength to say everything you have been feeling and be completely and recklessly honest. It’s that feeling you get right after you risk everything, and then what, that person just walks away. Just like that. YOU just walked away and left me hanging.
The funny part is, At the back of my mind the reason behind my willingness to give you another/3rd chance is just and only to see what scheme you’re up to this time. Sorry I have completely lost my trust in you. Gain it back if you wish but I doubt that it could be anytime soon.
I honestly feel like I don’t have any reason to feel good about myself anymore. I’m failing my quizzes, having madlang pimples, pale complexion and I’m obviously a fail cheerleader. I can’t manage my time. I have no time for anything and for anyone anymore. I can’t even eat much when in point of fact I am supposed to be the healthiest person there is on the team. What’s worse is, I have to do this alone. Like, the people I look up to, my friends, that one person, can’t do anything about it. If I fail, there’s no one to blame but myself. But if I make it, well, hahaha in your face! But, guys, I’ll find time if ever, you know, lovelife naman dyan! Hahaha joke joke
Kahapon ko lang nalaman na pwede mo palang patayin yung asawa mo kapag nakita mo syang nakahubad at nakapatong sa kalaguyo/kerida/kabit nya. Hindi ka makukulong kasi tulad ng mga baliw, hindi na sila aware sa ginagawa nila, kagaya ng isang taong sobra sobra kung umibig may posibilidad na mawala ito sa sarili kapag may mga pangyayari ngang ganon. (Hanapin na lang sa article 3 ng 1987 Philippine Constitution)
At nga pala, wala ding nakukulong sa utang. Oh shit.